omg.. today went for the sex talk or sumthin.. wtf.. damn wierd... and eeky.. like.. they talked abt abortion.. way scary..

I ACTUALLY CRIED WHEN I SAW THE VIDEO CLIP..

sobx.. the babies who died in the clip is so poorthing lorz....

i was badly truamatised...

i dont wanna have pre-marital sex or anythin... and i think i will never get married.. like.. even if i do.. i will consider very hardly if i wanna get a baby..

they asked us to note down wad type of future husband would we want.. this is what i wrote :

~ At least a music degree and is interested in the kind of music im interested in [ Musical]
~ 1 year older than me.. [LOL]
~Sensitive, not overly possesive, high tolerance level, understanding [right..]
~Ability to communicate with me..
~ANTI-RACIAL [DETERMINING FACTOR]
~any kind of nationalism will do.. [dont ask ridiculus things]
~double eye lid, at least taller than me

LOL WHAT KIND OF A DREAM AM I LIVIN IN?

My Meditation

Attraction

My need for companionship and love gives rise to my attraction to another person. Loving another means giving myself for the good of the other person, because the good and weel being of the other becomes my concern. True love is always free, total, faithful and fruitful. We all need to be loved and to love. Without bring loved, we will feel uncared for and lose our sense of dignity. Without loving, we would have failed to live our humanity. It is our nature to build loving relationships, be it with family, friends or spouse.
I have a Spirit that can love
My body expresses that love
The person makes a gift of self through his or her body. This capacity of the body to express love and be loved is the nuptial meaning of the body. The need to love and be loved is inscribed in our bodied as male and female. It finds its unique expression in the one flesh union of marriage. Sexual attraction to the opposite sex in me is my awareness of the nuptial language of the body. Marriage is the only proper context for sexual union because of the procreative and inutive significance of the act of sexual intercourse. Onnly in marriage is the body the nuptial gift between the spouses, in the mutual self-donation or self-giving. Sex is the life [ babies ] and love [ bonding ] in marriage and is the language of love in marriage. Sexual activity outside of marriage is counterfeit love.

Types Of Relationship

Friendship : has various degrees of closeness, from being a mere acquaintance to breing a close and personal friend.
Family : relationships likewise have various degrees of kinship, from parent-child / sibling relationship to distant relatives.
Courtship : usually refers to that stage of a couple's relationship whereby they are seriously contemplating marriage and is usually exclusive.
Spousal / Marital relationship : is the only relationship best described as the " two in one flesh " communion of persons that is actualised and consummated by sexual acts of the reproductive type. Marriage is the only proper context for a genital sexual relationship

Types of Emotions and Feelings in Relationships

Sexual / Erotic desires arise from our intuitive awareness of the nuptial meaning of the body. Though they are normal human experiences, they can lead to lustful desires and need to be controlled. Just like anger is a normal human experience but can be destructive and needs to be controlled. Chastity is self-mastery and self-control to avoid lust in our hearts.
Infatuation is any relationship that involves sexual attraction of sexual feelings for another. Also known as a crush r puppy lkove, it is not true love but it may lead to it. It is often confused with love. Because of the sexual element in infatuation, it is often lustful.
Lust is the counterfeit of love and it destroys true love. It is a desire to use another person [ his or her sexual body ] to achieve sexual gratification, thus violating his or her human dignity. Lust demeans the lustful person, destroys character and seld-integrity and dehumanizes human relationships.

ok.. like over all that.. erm.. yesterday went out wid anthea.. aiyo so many things happened.. okok.. first we went j8.. den since its at bishan, we decided to go my family's coffeeshop.. so we went.. and attracted a lot of stares.. diao.. den she said she feels as if what we are wearing is too catchy.. I think if the bitch were to see us she will be like.. omg we are acting and dressing like bitches trying to attract attention.. diao.. den antz say that my fashion sense is like her.. omg.. no way man.. wtf.. anyways.. when we reach the coffeeshop.. suddenly all the uncles were like to me " wah ni men wei she me lai zhe li? " and stuff.. lol.. den after that we took a drink.. den walked off.. we wanted to take bus to kuo chuan sec.. but in the end took the wrong one.. we went to toa payoh instead.. DOTX.. so we stoped at the highway... den the most ironic thing is that when we were waiting for the bus, the bus took forever to come.. when we were hailing a cab.. the bus came n go like 3 times.. wtf? it took us 5 minutes to hail a cab.. dotx.. den we reach orchard.. met up with pamela.. den she told us that she pierce her belly button... its like.. ouch? and its not professional pierce de lorz.. its her friend help her de.. like ouch again? den we went to heeren.. the shops there still sux.. walk for quite a long time.. den went back to taka... tried to find the famous amos shop.. but under reconstruction... diao! we like went to wisma den we saw this totally cool hat.. its black.. den the design contrasts with the colour.. damn nice.. omg...! i wanna buy it.... haiz.. im gonna go buy it before pamela's concert! yay~! need a belt.. den i also saw one black pink white pencilbox.. damn nice.. tell u sum thin... big one is 3.90 small one 4.90.. TELL ME ABOUT IT..

haiz.. yesterday was so fun.. we made noise as if we own that place.. lol! now pamela knows anthea.. dotx..pam got her no le.. i hope nothin bad will happen.. haiz.. its bad when best friends know best friends... shhhh... anyways.. today jolynn come to my house.. ate sushi!!! den we talked about stuff.. fun... haas.. oh wells... im gonna go out with pamela again!! yay!

FUN FUN FUN !!

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